ENDLESS TEARS
Endless Tears – Episode 18 & 19
Subtle: I just wanna make you Smile again
Genres: Billionaire, Deceit
Tags: Deceit,love, jealousy,hatred, marriage
Written by Adeola Nissi
(A CHANGE)
Tina paced the kitchen nervously. Her brain was in overdrive
and she did not have the slightest idea about what to do. It has been
three days since the abominable Miss Lisa entered the house and the
house was practically on fire, but that was not what was getting on
Tina‟s nerves. Ever since Amara moved into another room, Tina
hadn‟t set her eyes on her. She had practically locked herself inside
the room without opening the door. No single sound came out of the
room and it was beginning to scare Tina to death. Since she hadn‟t
even opened the door, it was obvious that she hadn‟t eaten anything
for the past three days.
The frustration was too much for Tina to handle and she
paraded Amara‟s door endlessly, knocking loud and hard enough to
rouse the dead and speaking both softly and sharply through the
door, but she hadn‟t received even a sound in response. She had
repeatedly left meals by the door, hoping that Amara would at least
eat, even if she did not want to see anyone but she always ended up
retrieving the cold meals untouched until Lisa yelled her brains out,
threatening to get her fired if she continued to waste her „husband‟s
resources on a hopeless village dropout‟.
Fear gripped Tina as she wondered what had happened to
Amara. Three days! Yet Amara was not opening the door. She had
pushed aside negative thoughts at first but since yesterday, she
couldn‟t but think about evil things. „What if she slipped and fell in
the bathroom?‟… „She might be terribly sick‟… All her attempts to
stop her fears proved abortive. She had tried to bring the matter up
before Mr. Alex but she never got to meet him alone and every time
she got to mention Amara‟s name Miss Lisa would shut her up
instantly, saying that she and her hussy were not interested in
spoiling their mood with the „village tramp‟ and that she should
mind her business and do what she was employed to do instead of carrying gossips. Mr. Alex had also seemed to be in perfect sync with
Miss Lisa. Tina did not believe that a man could be so cold and
heartless.
“Hey” Tina jerked and saw Tola looking at her with a frown.
“Do you want to drill holes into the expensive kitchen tiles? What is
eating you up?” Tola asked.
Tina did not need to be told that Tola disliked Amara, it had
been obvious since day one, but still, Tina felt obliged to share her
worry, hoping beyond hope that Tola would put aside her hatred
and help her find a solution to this issue. “I am worried Tola” Tina
responded.
Tola hissed. “I can see that clearly. My question is why?”
Tina hesitated then threw caution to the wind as anxiety took
over. “It is our madam, Amara. She has not opened the door to her
room for the past three days. I am getting scared.
Tola frowned deeply, looking terribly worried to the surprise
and relief of Tina. “Oh my God! And you are just telling me now?
You always spend time with her and since she was always used to
staying in her room, I did not notice anything weird” she seemed
startled now.
This made Tina more worried. “I know. I should have told you
but I thought she just wanted to be left alone and was sulking
because of Miss Lisa‟s arrival, but this is the third day Tola. She has
been in there without eating for three days. I am so scared.”
“Jesus” she breathed. “Let‟s go there again” she started out of
the kitchen instantly and Tina hastily followed.
When they got to Amara‟s room, the knocked and banged
endlessly and called out but there was no response. They tried to
open the door but it was firmly locked. Sweat gathered on Tina‟s
forehead and she wiped it away, feeling cold all over. Her heart raced
in fear.
“Jesus! What are we going to do Tina?” Tola asked getting
equally agitated.
“I don‟t know” Tina almost screamed. “That is why I told you.
Miss Lisa knows but she does not give a damn. She hasn‟t allowed
me to tell Mr. Alex either” she swallowed. “What if… what if
something happened to her? What if…”
“Oh Tina, shut up. You are beginning to scare me” Tola
mouthed nervously. “Come, let‟s see if we can find a spare key to
open the door” Tina nodded, even though she had already done that
before, searching again was a very good idea.
**
I raised my hand weakly and rubbed my hot face. I heard
knocks on the door but totally ignored it and the voices that came
afterwards. Even if I wanted to answer, there was no strength left in
me to talk. I mustered enough strength to push myself off the bed
and almost fell back down.
I had stayed in the room ever since I received the bomb shell
from Alex and even now, the words still made me double over in
pain. During my three days of „room arrest‟, I have cried more than I
have ever cried in my life. The tears just kept pouring and pouring
until there was no strength left in me to cry. The water from the tap
in the toilet‟s washing-hand basin was the only thing sustaining me.
The three days have been terribly hard, filled with pain and
intense hunger which was almost maddening, probably because I am
pregnant and my baby was demanding food. I whispered to my baby
every now and then, telling myself that I am not alone. I continued to
comfort my child, begging him to bear with me. The isolation was
necessary.
After staying alone, the reality of loneliness dawned on me. I
finally reached a resolve. I have reached my terminal where crying is
concerned. I have finally realized that crying over Alex was a hopeless cause and a waste of time and energy. All I have in this
world is my child, whom I would continue to cherish, no matter what
I am up against.
I managed to drag my dehydrated self to the bathroom and
relieved my full bladder before quenching my killing thirst by
drinking from the tap in the toilet. My eyes seemed to have sunk into
their sockets as I looked at myself in the mirror. I was a shadow of
myself and I knew I would have to change that. Despite my
starvation, my breasts were much fuller than they were months back,
giving me a more shapely body than I originally possessed and I
knew it was due to the pregnancy. After drinking my fill, I washed
my face and left the bathroom slowly. There was no strength left in
me due to lack of food and the water I just drank woke up a hunger
that could not be ignored. It was disheartening that I had to treat Tina
the way I did but I just could not see anyone. If I had seen her earlier,
I was pretty sure I would take my anger out on her and that would
be terrible since she did not deserve it.
I opened the door of my room and walked out weakly,
grabbing the walls for support whenever my legs shook. I was on the
verge of a new beginning and the first step would be to quench this
abominable hunger. I held the railings of the stairs in a viselike grip
as I went down. Immediately I got to the landing of the stairs, Tina
and Tola stopped the search they involved in and turned, nearly
jumping out of their skins when they saw me.
“Amara” Tina gasped.
This was the first time she called me by my name since she
discovered that I was Alex‟s wife and I was pleased by the timing.
Now, I could confidently call her my friend. “Christ! You have
almost killed me with worry” she jumped to my side instantly. “This
is terrible! How can you be so inconsiderate in your condition?”
“Thanks Tina” I managed weakly as I bent from extreme
hunger. “And you too Tola” I whispered, remembering that I heard her worried voice, minutes ago. “Thanks for your concern” I
swallowed. “I am terribly hungry though” I smiled weakly at Tina.
She jumped to action right away, going into the kitchen and
working with lightning speed, condemning my actions like a mother
as she worked. I sat in the kitchen with her, contented to hear her
angry words. Tola hung around, not saying anything. I smiled softly
at her and relaxed against the backrest of the chair with my eyes
closed.
A plate of Indomie was placed at my front faster than I
imagined and I attacked it like a hungry lion. As I ate, she took a
large piece of chicken from the microwave and put it on my plate. I
ate like I have never eaten before and the rich aroma of piping hot tea
drifted to my nostrils and my desire to eat increased several degrees.
She placed the steaming cup before me and stood back to watch me
eat. I grabbed the cup instantly, taking a careful sip before continuing
my meal, muffling my thanks between mouthfuls.
After draining the last drop of tea minutes later, I could
confidently say that my hunger had been quenched.
“Why did you lock yourself in?” Tina asked with a
disapproving frown.
“I was charting a new course”. I smiled at her confusion and
stood up, walking out of the kitchen with Tina at my heels. “By the
way, where is Alex‟s mistress?” I asked unconcerned as I made for
my room. Tina followed me, probably to make sure I did not lock
myself in again.
“She went shopping” she responded.
I nodded with my smile still intact. “I would take my bath and
get dressed. I need you to follow me somewhere. Are you free” I
asked.
“Of course. Where are we going?” she asked as we entered my
room.
“We are going shopping”. Her eyes widened.Tina and I left the house and returned hours later with several
heavy nylon bags. She had insisted we take a driver but I was not
interested, the idea of walking around was more appealing to me and
we later got a taxi to bring us home, due to the weight of the bags.
The bags were filled with clothes, and definitely, more than half were
baby clothes and toys. I hadn‟t been able to leave behind a single
baby thing. Lisa assured me that there was more than enough money
in the credit card and I asked her to teach me how to use it which she
did eagerly. We bought the clothes from a cheap store and I found
myself smiling genuinely with thoughts of my child floating around
my head.
ApaApart from buying baby things, I had decided to harken to the
words of my parents by buying some suitable clothes for myself. I
bought mostly gowns which were free from just beneath my bust
because this would conceal my tummy effectively. The clothes were
so beautiful and I could not wait to try them on. My three days
indoors made me come to the conclusion that my parents had been
right after all. I couldn‟t stick with Alex. Despite my dislike for the
word „divorce‟, I was forced to see the reality of the fact that there is
no future for Alex and me, because even if through some sheer
miracle, I forgive him for all he has done, I would never forget, and
the pain would hunt our relationship till the end of my days. Right
from the time that Alex told me I was nothing more than a betting
competition to him, everything called love that I felt for him died
instantly, replaced by hatred which grew with each passing minute. I
only have my child, my parents and myself; the earlier I accept that,
the better. There is one other person who loves me though; I smiled
at Tina, grateful to God that she is with me.
“Why do I have the nagging feeling that these clothes look
more than what we actually bought?” she asked with a frown
I smiled and changed the subject. “I am happy you finally call
me Amara. At least, something good came out of locking myself up
in the room” I said as we entered the house.
She scoffed “The only thing you achieved with that is putting
your child at risk. We need to go to the hospital to have you properly
checked-up”
I laughed. “It is not that serious. My little baby boy also agrees
that the fast was necessary” I replied confidently.
She snorted as we entered the house.
“Where are you coming from?” Alex‟s voice rang out silently. I
glanced over at the couch and saw him looking at me. Lisa was lying
on the chair with her head on his laps, feeding him crackers. My
glance did not take more than a second and I continued up with
stairs without a word, pulling the bags of clothes along.
“Are you deaf? I said where are you coming from?” he
repeated with more authority.
“Are you blind? You have eyes, use them” I returned as I
paused.
“Are you talking to me?” he boomed with surprise showing in
his voice. I turned to look at him squarely and Tina quickly got out of
the way.
“Are you daft as well as blind? Of course, I am talking to you. I
see no reason why I should owe you any explanation for my
movements. Need I remind you of the words of the very same
agreement we signed? I am allowed to do whatsoever I feel like in
this house. After serious thinking, I have decided that the agreement
is probably the only sensible thing that has happened to me ever
since I met you. Secondly, I greatly hope you keep the credit card you
gave me loaded with money because I am a pregnant woman who
would need a lot of cash to keep up with the demands of
motherhood. That should not be a problem since you seem to possess
more money than brain. The former Amara is gone. She died three days ago. You better not mess with the woman standing here,
because if you do, you would taste the wrath of a woman‟s scorn.” I
paused to catch my breath and continued calmly. “I am the woman
of the house here and I expect my demands to be met. If you find that you would not be able to cope with me and want to grant me the divorce I asked for earlier, I would be more than happy to sign the divorce papers, but be rest assured Alex…” I smiled “… that I would destroy your life just as you destroyed mine before I leave you alone”
“You threaten me?” I asked with a softly deceptive voice which made him sound terribly dangerous.
I smiled sweetly. “No sweetheart, I do not threaten you; I promise you”
I turned and marched up to my bedroom, leaving them stunned and speechless. When I finally sat on my bed, I realized that
Tina was looking at me like I had grown four heads. I smiled.
“Mr. Alex does not take threats lightly” she said, looking agitated.
I nodded. “I am not expecting him to” I said. “Thanks for your help today Tina, I am totally exhausted” I sighed. “Yes! I have something for you” I declared and she frowned.
I checked the nylon bags and saw the one I was looking for. It was a nylon filled with clothes. I gave it to her and her eyes widened.
“This is for you” I grinned happily.
“No” she gasped. “It can‟t be for me.” She gasped more when she checked the clothes. While we shopped, I had noticed her eyes
hovering dreamily over some clothes and I had taken note. In order
to pick out the clothes and some more without her notice, I had sent
her to get me something, picking the clothes behind her back. “I can‟t
possibly wear these” she seemed close to tears. “And they are really
expensive”
I smiled affectionately at her. “Oh Tina, come on. Do you know the magnitude of what you have been doing for me? A truck load of clothes would not be able fully appreciate your help. When I needed
a friend, you were there”
“But I did not ask for anything in return”
“I know. I just noticed that you loved these clothes and bought
them, besides, you deserve more for putting up with my insatiable
choices today without complaining. Here” I gave her another nylon
which was just halfway full. “For Tola. I don‟t want her getting jealous. She was also worried about me earlier, so she deserves it” I smiled.
She thanked me profusely and the excitement of having clothes
took over her. I saw sadness flash in her eyes and became curious. “It is just a shame that I won‟t be able to wear them anytime soon since I
have to always be in my uniform” she explained.
I had totally forgotten about that little piece of detail. An idea popped into my head and I grinned. “We would salvage that
situation now. Follow me” I stood and charged out of the room with Tina following in confusion and agitation. I could hear Lisa‟s angry
voice screaming at a silent Alex and I smiled, knowing that I was the subject of discussion. I got to the sitting room and Lisa fell silent as
she glared at me.
“Yes” I began. “Remember, I told you I would be taking charge of some things as the madam of the house? Well, I am about to change something. I just bought some clothes for my dear friend here
but noticed that the uniform she is mandated to wear would restrict her from putting on the clothes and I won‟t have that. From today, I
put an end to the uniform. The girls would put on anything they feel like, but for moderacy, they would be restricted to putting on gowns.
I just decided to let you know” I said with an air of indifference, ignoring Tina‟s gasp.
“You must be joking. Who do you think you are to enforce laws in this house?” Lisa yelled with her hands furiously jammed to her
waist as she tapped her feet, standing pensively.
I glanced at her like a piece of pest. “Last time I checked, I wasn‟t a comedian. And whenever I talk in this house, you keep your
filthy mouth shut because I am the only one with the legal rights in
this house, not you. You are nothing more than a concubine or a
mistress who is enjoying the privilege of being in this house. Now,
shut your mouth because I am talking to my husband, not you and I
won‟t have you interrupt my speech” I shifted my eyes to Alex. “The issue of this uniform is not up for discussion and has been settled
because I have given my approval” I faced a pale-faced Tina. “You
can go Tina, inform Tola about this and I wish to see you both
changed with immediate effect. The three of us would go shopping
tomorrow to select more gowns for you both” I said finally and
walked up the stairs with my head held high.
I stared at myself in the mirror in disbelief. I could not quite
believe I was the one in the mirror. Tina had helped relax my hair
and now, it fell freely and softly around my shoulders, with a gentle
glow. The gown though was a sight to behold. Though simple, it
hugged my upper body perfectly and the flare which began beneath
the bust was more than enough to hide my growing tummy, making
me look like the sexiest pregnant woman alive. I laughed at the
vague thought and wondered why on earth I hadn‟t agreed to this in
the first place. Having good clothes was effectively driving away my
sadness, making me forget my pain and regrets; I only hoped the
feeling would last long because if not, I would continue to buy
clothes to keep this feeling in place. I smiled in remembrance of my
cheeky behaviors yesterday with Alex and Lisa. The stunned
expressions which had taken over the two had been a sight to behold.
Even after a hundred years, I don‟t think I would be able to erase
their shocked faces from my memory. It was still a surprise that I had
actually pulled it off but I guess you never know what you are
capable of until you are faced with challenges.
I gave myself one last glance and turned away from the mirror.
I knew that Alex hadn‟t left for the office, and if my calculations are
right, he would be eating breakfast right now with his beloved
mistress by his side. I opened the door of my room and stepped out.
As I walked down the stairs, I met Tina, bringing my breakfast,
obviously to my room.
“Good morning Tina” I greeted.
She opened her mouth, unable to close it for a few seconds. I
instinctively knew what she was gaping at. “Woow” she gasped.
“This gown was definitely made with you in mind” she breathed.
“You look divine”.
I grinned. “I know, I was also gaping when I stared at myself in
the mirror”
“And it is just a simple gown. What would you look like when
you put on those outing dresses? I always knew you were a
spectacular beauty.”
I grinned. “Now you are flattering me. If you were a man,
ladies would fall for your sweet tongue”. Just like I fell for Alex. That
thought was inevitable and it deflated my high spirit like a
punctured balloon. Tina noticed this and her smile vanished.
Mentally shaking myself, I looked at her. “Thanks Tina, from today, I
would have my breakfasts on the dinning, along with everyone. I
should stop adding to your work load. Besides, it would be fun to sit
on the same table with my husband‟s mistress” I smiled.
She frowned. “Are you sure you know what you are doing
Amara? This new tactic might backfire and I am scared you might get
hurt” she said softly, looking worried.
“I am already hurt Tina, what more can anyone do? No one can
do more than what has been done already, and as long as that does
not happen, I can handle anything that comes my way” I murmured.
“For your sake, I hope you are right”
“I am, stop worrying Tina. By the way, I am not the only one
looking pretty, you look absolutely stunning today dear friend” I said
with a wink as I walked down the stairs.
“All thanks to you” she returned. I held myself from
responding as I drew closer to the dining and tried to gather
momentum. I saw Alex sitting at the head of the chair with Lisa
beside him looking angry. She looked just as angry as she looked the
previous day and I smiled brightly as I got to the table. Alex and Lisa
looked up and seemed to freeze on their seats. Alex held his cup of
tea in the air, and the cup nearly dropped from his fingers in shock. I
felt it as their eyes traced my body and my smile deepened. This
should be an interesting morning!
“Well well” Lisa squeaked softly. “I guess the village tramp is
now trying to fit into society” she murmured angrily.
I inhaled deeply, completely ignoring her cos I really did not
have time for her today. “Uhmmmmm…” I sighed. “Something
smells nice” I said with a dreamy look on my face. I walked to Alex
and was terribly irritated when his eyes roamed my body, lingering
on my chest, but I hid my irritation behind a fake smile. I got to Alex
and suddenly bent to plant a firm kiss on his cheek, stunning him
and drawing a sharp angry look from Lisa.
“Good morning dear husband” I said with excitement ringing
in my voice. I glanced at Lisa. “Good morning mistress”. None of
them answered and I frowned dramatically. “Awww… didn‟t you
both enjoy a good night’s sleep?” They looked at me impassively and
I shook my head and looked pitifully at them. “That is a shame. I
actually had a very nice sleep, the best I have had in a long time by
the way, and a wonderful dream to go with it” I smiled gaily. I sank
onto the chair on Alex‟s left and picked a plate and served myself.
Eating fried eggs did not seem like a good idea because I have
noticed since I got pregnant, that I always ended up throwing up
afterwards, so I opted for taking bread and tea only. I moaned softly
in appreciation when the rich beverage slid down my throat and Alex
looked up instantly.
Lisa cleared her throat and sat as straight as a stick on her chair
and murmured something under her breath then faced Alex.
“Sweetheart?” she called.
“Yes baby” Alex answered distractedly. I continued my meal as
though there were not there.
“I had a talk with the wedding planner last night” she began.
“You did?” Alex seemed tense.
“Yes. All the decorations are in order and the baker is working
on the cakes. The wedding gown I chose has been purchased and
would be delivered soon. I think everything is in place. I want the wedding to be grand and not look like a shabby sitting room
wedding” she declared.
“No one would dare wed you in a sitting room baby” Alex
responded. “You are way too precious for that”.
She laughed. “Thanks baby… Obviously. Only village dropouts
get married in such manner” she said triumphantly.
“At least, the village dropout gets a wedding. You won’t be
getting any” I said calmly as I chewed on the bread.
Tina faced me angrily. She had obviously been trying to get me
angry with her comment and my calm statement got her infuriated.
“Oh? Is your imagination playing tricks on you? We are getting
married next week, if you are nice, i might invite you so you can see
what a real wedding should look like” she said sharply with a cynical
smile.
“Oh sweetheart, sorry to burst your bubble, there won’t be a
wedding, not next week, not next year, not in the next life, do you
understand?” I returned, focusing fully on my meal.
“There won‟t? And what would you do to stop the wedding
uhn?” I could hear her tapping her feet angrily under the table.
“Yes. How do you plan on stopping it?” Alex added and I noted
his increasing anger in the taut lines of veins in his strong hands.
“Oh me? I won‟t do anything; in fact, Alex would definitely
stop the wedding by himself” I murmured with a deepening smile.
“What the hell are you talking about Amara?” Alex asked.
“Never mind” I dismissed and stood up. “Well, I have to go
now”
“Sit down. You would explain the meaning of this nonsense
right now tramp” Lisa yelled.
I raised my brows. “The next time you call me that, I would
personally show you how villagers deal with people like you.
Nonsense”
I stood up from the chair and walked into the kitchen. Tina and Tola were in the middle of a discussion when I entered the kitchen.
“Hey ladies” I greeted with a smile.
“Good morning Miss Amara. Thanks again for the clothes”
Tola said hastily.
“It‟s nothing, besides, we are going to get more today” they both grinned and I had the feeling that I had won Tola over. She looked freer with me than she has ever been and I liked it. The less
enemies I had, the better. “Ok, are you both ready?” they nodded frantically and we set out.
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