THE K1LLER'S KNIFE
The K1ller's Knife - Episode 43
I braced up and decided to face my fears as a man. Whatever the outcome of mother coming in here will be, I will overcome it or accept it in good faith!
After making that mental decision, I verbally gave the permission for the door to be opened.
It was pulled open and I discovered that I was right after all, it is mother!
She closed the door back and walked over to meet me on the bed. I was still sitting with my heart pounding rapidly but I tried to relax my mind so I could hear what she had to say.
" Please can I sit...?" Mother asked politely and I nodded vigorously in affirmation
"...thank you my son" she said calmly and smiled before sitting down beside me on the bed
" You're welcome mother! I told you already that this is like your home so you can sit down anywhere" I said to mother though I didn't really mean it
Mother smiled widely at my response. She used her eyes to look at the decorations of my bedroom.
Then she turned to look at me and said something in the form of compliments which I hadn't expected to hear
" You have a nice apartment Jacob and I'm glad you married rightly. It's also good to know that you grew up to be a responsible man who is taking care of your sisters and me. Through my discussion with your wife....I've gotten to know that you are also an amazing husband to her...which is nothing like how your father was to me as his wife. I am happy you didn't take after him" Mother said sighing sadly
I didn't know what to say so I opted for silence. That's how we both sat there without uttering any other word
Silence ensued between us for a few minutes and since mother wasn't making any attempt to break it, I decided to do so by speaking my mind
" Mother it surprises me that you could remember me as a son...enough for you to think of visiting me today. I'm scared that you aren't visiting because you've forgiven me but rather you've come to take revenge on me. I'll understand if that is the case but please mother leave my wife Nancy out of it...we both know...she is innocent!"
Mother just looked at me and exhaled before finally talking in a low tone
" Flora came to see me yesterday. She looked so disheveled and full of regrets. Well that's her business but then I'm happy she came to explain everything that happened sixteen years ago to me. Jacob it is all thanks to her that I now understand why you did what you did"
" I don't understand mother. What do you mean...? Is this about Flora k!lling Keto her husband...?" I asked to understand where this is headed. When mother nodded a No to my question, I was left even more confused than ever.
" It's not that Jacob. It's the fact that your father wanted me déâd so he could marry another woman! I couldn't believe it until Flora showed me the text messages exchanged between them. Tell me Jacob...did you know about this...?"
I heaved heavily as I nodded in the affirmative and thereafter I responded to mother's question
" Yes mother I knew about but I didn't want to explain things to you. I thought that by keeping that part to myself...it will help you retain the good image you thought of father to be. He is still my father so I didn't want you to see him in a bad light as a last memory of him"
" That doesn't erase the fact that he is a bad man Jacob! I loved Jamie so much even more than I loved myself. God! I was so in shock when Flora told me that he was the brain behind Keto's dëäth...." Mother said calmly and from the way her voice was cracking, I could tell that she was about to start crying
"...to top it all...he wanted to p0¡son me as well. So it means that if not for Flora's constant refusal not to commit a second mμrder.... I Felicia would have been a déâd woman today...?" Mother asked herself rhetorically. I knew it was a rhetorical question but I still answered
" Yes mother. Flora is the one who stopped father from carrying out his ev¡l plans to k¡ll you like he did to Keto!"
Mother bursted into uncontrollable tears unable to hold it in anymore. She kept lamenting to herself
" Oh my God! What did I ever do to Jamie to deserve such ev¡l schemes against me...? Why me...?"
I sat there in silence and watched as mother shed tears. I allowed her to cry all she wanted and pour out her pains without restraints.
Soon she was okay and stopped crying. That is when I handed her a handkerchief that I always carry in my trouser pocket for wiping sweats.
Mother accepted the handkerchief from me and went on to wipe her tears and blow her nose. After she was done, she stared at me in a way I haven't seen her look at me for years. It was a look of warmth and motherly affection
" I have forgiven you Jacob for all you did. I also want to plead for your forgiveness. I'm sorry for allowing my heart of no forgiveness to deprive me of my time with you as a son. I'm sorry for starving you of motherly love all these years. I'm very sorry Jacob that I was never there for you as a mother should. You actually saved me from Jamie..."
" I hold nothing in my heart against you mother. In fact I'm even happy that you have chosen to forgive me for what I did in the past. Thank you mother" I said tenderly with so much relieve in my heart. It feels like a heavy burden has just been lifted off my chest
Mother inhaled and exhaled heavily before she began talking again
" Thank you too Jacob. You see after Flora's confession to me...she went to the police to give herself in for the mμrder of Keto. I told her I have forgiven her and even tried advising against doing it but she insisted. Flora said that the gμilt and the nightmares wouldn't let her be so she wanted to do the right thing"
I nodded my head and sighed sadly as I responded to mother
" I understand her mother. I felt the same gμilt and burden in my heart and that's why I had to do the right thing fourteen years back. I confessed and paid for my cr¡mes in the legal way"
Mother looked at me in admiration. She then smiled and revealed things to me which I never knew until today
" You're such a strong boy to have given yourself in Jacob. Doctor Stanley called to tell me about it and I had to start bringing food for you in the pr¡son...but I told them to keep me anonymous" Mother said and paused to take a breath
I was in awe at the revelation. I was seriously wowed at what I heard!
So mother is the anonymous person who kept bringing me food in pr¡son...? I never would have guessed so. I thought that maybe it was Mrs Nadia, but I guess I was so wrong about my presumption.
" Mother I'm so happy to hear this! I thought you had entirely abandoned me and wanted nothing to do with me. I guess I was wrong after all. Thank you!" I said with gratitude showing on my face
Mother continued saying more things that I just wouldn't have believed to be true if I was told by another person.
" I never stopped caring for you from a distance. I also assisted doctor Stanley and his wife in financing your education in the medical school...and I insisted that they keep it a secret from you. Jacob you are my son. Yes I may not have wanted you close to me due to the hμrt...but I didn't completely abandon you..ever!"
My mouth went agape in bewilderment. I was feeling so overwhelmed with joy!
" Oh my God! You are the bestest mother in the whole world! Thank you very much. I love you so very much mother and I am glad to be birth by you!" I exclaimed feeling really emotional
Mother's eyes softened as she beckoned on me to come closer. I smiled genuinely as I stood up and walked up to her.
" Kneel down in front of me Jacob. I want to pray for you!" Mother told me
" Okay mother" I simply said and then knelt down as she instructed me
" You are a good child Jacob. I take back all the ¡ll words I said to you to tárnish your esteem. As a mother...I am blessing you from my heart. You will be blessed amongst men!..you shall prosper!...you shall never lack!...you will always be in abundance!.. you will always experience happiness and peace!...you will be favored always!....and you will succeed in all your endeavors!. Jacob whoever plans ev¡l against you shall be put to shame in Jesus name. Amen!!!!!" Mother proclaimed powerfully with her eyes tightly closed in prayer
" Amen and Amen!!!!!" I proclaimed too with my eyes closed.
After the prayer session, mother and I opened our eyes and we were lovingly staring at each other. Mother was the one who spoke out first
" I have missed you so much Jacob. I love you and your sisters very much. Come here....give your mother a big hug" Mother said smiling warmly and pulled her arms apart for me to come into it
I suddenly became emotional by her words and actions. Mother truly came with a good motive and not a bad one like I had initially thought it was.
Tears dropped from my eyes as I stood up and jumped into mother's warm embrace. Mother and I giggled as we hugged each other for a long time but yet we were still reluctant to pull away.
I felt fulfilled deep within me. Honestly I had never envisioned that a day like this will ever come but it is here today. So I just can't help but to thank God for making this day come through for me.
Look at me Jacob Jamie who was a confused 14 year old boy with an abμsive father, today I am a grown up man who is doing very well for himself.
To top up my testimonies; My wife Nancy is pregnant with my child, my sisters are doing comfortably well, and right now my greatest heart desires have been granted by God. I have been praying to God to touch mother's heart for me and he answered me.
Look at me now hugging Mother who I have been begging to forgive me and today she has willingly done so on her own accord. I'm just feeling so excited that she is back into my life again to rekindle our broken relationship.
In my heart I am more than happy and equally thankful for the tough experiences that life had thrown at me. It is those experiences that has shaped me into the better man that I am today.
Father may not have been a good father to me but I am hoping to rewrite the script of bad parenting.
I'll accomplish that by being a loving, amazing, caring, trustworthy, and supportive father to my unborn children and a good husband to my dearest wife.
I can't do so alone, so I'm praying may God help me. Amen.
THE END
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