ENDLESS TEARS
Endless Tears - Episode 11&12
Subtle: I just wanna make you Smile again
Genres: Billionaire, Deceit
Tags: Deceit,love, jealousy,hatred, marriage
Written by Adeola Nissi
(MY BABY BOY)
My knees started going weak from all the tension I had just experienced, but staring at Alex as he paced, I discovered that facing
his wrath would be much more sapping that what I had just
witnessed. I was exhausted though, and was not in the mood to get
into any meaningless arguments with Alex. Watching him pace was
exhausting enough. I walked silently towards my sack with a heavy
heart. I could not believe that I was being separated from my
husband, barely a week into the marriage. Normal couples would
still be on their blissful honeymoon by now, but we are definitely not
the picture of a perfect couple. It felt like a heavy weight had just
landed on my shoulders as I thought of leaving. Why does it hurt so
much to leave Alex despite all he has done? I wondered. I surely
should not still love him after all these! I swallowed painfully as I
cleared my throat.
“So I guess it is goodbye Corper” I said. It had felt so good to
call him Alex in the presence of everyone. But now that everyone was
gone, I decided it best to call him Corper. Calling him Alex now
would create a picture of intimacy and I did not want that because it
would make my exit more unbearable.
“And where the hell do you think you are going to?” he
growled, coming to a stop at my front, making me shiver. Whether
from fear or reaction to his nearness, I could not tell.
I swallowed. “To wherever I can find peace. I want a divorce,
or an annulment since the marriage was not consummated after the
wedding” I said with a raise of my head.
“Oh, so you can rejoice in the fact that you left me destroyed
right?” he asked in anger and chills went through my spine. He
glared at me then paced again. “In case you don‟t know, let me tell
you. „The Bellos Crow‟ is my life. After my secondary school, I spent
four years learning the managerial tactics from my father until I
became an expert, even much better than my father. After gaining
admission, I partly managed the company from school by giving
orders of what should be done, even without being there. The
company grew tremendously until it became as big as it is today. I
would be damned if someone else would take over what I have toiled
for all my life.”
I felt for him. With the way he talked about the company, I
knew instantly that he really loved the company. Though I noted
this, I saw no reason why all these should affect me. Surely the
Senator‟s threat was not real, was it? “I still don‟t see why you are
telling me this” I said to him and his face softened slowly, with
embarrassment creeping in slightly.
“You can‟t leave this house, you have to stay”
I inhaled as anger set in again. “You want me to stay? Sacrifice
my happiness and freedom for you? Just because you want to keep
your company? How dare you?” he really had a lot of nerves. “You
have given me nothing but sadness. If not for this child, I would have
cursed the day I set my eyes on you. Where is Corper Bello, because
this man standing before me is not the man I met in my humble
village” I ranted as I paced too.
A pained expression seemed to cross his features but it was gone in a second. “I am sorry, I know this is selfish of me but please look at it positively. Your parents would still disown you if you leave me and you would have nowhere to go in this large city. You could
stay here instead, have a roof over your head and food also” he started pacing as if he could not believe the words coming out of his own mouth. “It is your only choice cos I won‟t give you a divorce”
I laughed softly. “You think that would stop me?” I asked. “I would rather live on the streets than be a maid in my husband‟s house”
“You don‟t have to be a maid. You would be recognized as the… woman of the house. You would have your own room upstairs, including everything you need” he rasped in irritation.I swallowed. “But there is one thing I cannot have, right? I can‟t have my husband” I said.
He nodded. “We would both live together but have the
freedom to do whatever we like. You have the right to go anywhere and do anything you like with anyone and I also have the same rights. We can be mature enough to manage this situation we found ourselves without inconveniencing each other in any way”
“In other words, you want us to live in the same house like tenants, or strangers, right?” I asked bitterly.
“You must admit that it makes perfect sense” he said.
The drama just never seemed to end. From being a maid, to being a housemate in my husband‟s house. Can life get any worse? I sighed. But thinking about it, the proposition was not totally bad. In fact, it sounded ok. Once I get rid of the ridiculous motion that Alex
would come to love me as much as I still foolishly love him, I should be able to live by those rules. I swallowed. “Ok” I murmured finally,
feeling the last of my strength drain out of me.
He exhaled in relief. “Perfect then. Please ask Tina to show you
to one of the rooms upstairs. There are four rooms there, you can
choose anyone you like” he said in total indifference. I have to go out
now, when I get back, I would give you a credit card for you to use
for whatever you might need. I would also have a lawyer draft an
agreement in order to make this arrangement legal. This would
protect both our rights. I hope this is ok?” he asked and I nodded
numbly. He turned towards the door instantly and was out of the
house within seconds.
I did not know what a credit card is but I let him leave. I have
had more than enough and I needed some space to assimilate the
turn of events. I knew instinctively that Alex was probably going
after the saucy girlfriend but I quenched the bitterness I felt at the
thought. Since I have agreed to this insane arrangement, I would
most likely experience this shit on a regular basis. And the legal agreement he talked about would definitely give him the legal rights
to do that; I surely hadn‟t seen that coming. I turned on my heels,
walking slowly towards the kitchen. There was only one thing I
wanted to do with the last iota of strength in me.
I got to the kitchen and met the two ladies looking as though
they had just fallen into a ditch. I was sorry for keeping this away
from Tina who had been extremely helpful from day one. They both
looked scared but Tola looked like she wished the ground would
swallow her. There was no mistaking the fact that they had heard
everything. I smiled. “Tola, I want you to select a very good room for
me upstairs, preferably anyone that has a good view of the beautiful
garden. Make sure it is sparkling clean without a speck of dust, do
you understand?” she was silent. I glared at her. “Do you understand
me?” she nodded stiffly and I smiled. “Good girl”
I smiled softly at Tina and left the kitchen. The excitement of taking everyone by surprise vanished with each step I took, replaced firmly by an overwhelming sadness. By accepting this arrangement, I have given Alex the right to hurt me the more. Since we could both do anything we liked, I knew that he would take advantage of that by having as many women as he liked. I closed my eyes and prayed that
I would have the ability to withstand what was to come.
Two weeks dragged by and the swell of my tummy became visible for all to see. Unfortunately, the only things that saw the swell
apart from me were the four walls of my bedroom and the sparkling furniture that were hung in several places. Alex had brought the agreement, just like he talked about, two weeks ago and I had signed
instantly, wanting to get the deal over with. Ever since I endorsed the document, I have not set my eyes on him. It was not surprising since
I almost never stepped out of the room. I had everything I needed
there; the soft warm bed, the enticing bathroom which I learnt had hot and cold water a fingertip away and a refreshing view of the soothing garden from my window. I initially paid Tola back in her own coin, making her do everything, ranging from washing my rag-like clothes, to washing the bed sheets every blessed day. It was not much work since I learnt that they used a machine to do all these, but
the fact that I was ordering her around was enough to frustrate her. It was not long before I grew weary of this because it was not in my
nature to have people do the chores for me, so I decided to apply maturity by allowing Tola have her space. She was surely regretting
her earlier actions, it seemed unnecessary to add more fuel to the fire.
Tina was helpful as usual, never letting me rest. She tried to see me as the madam that I was but I was not comfortable with it. Living big was so strange, it was almost scary, and I needed a friend to stand
by me. After carefully schooling her and letting her know that I would rather have her as a friend than my maid, she finally gave in, though, she still showed great levels of respect. Tina has been
responsible for making sure that I eat, and she would talk me to death if I don‟t eat anything. It was annoying sometimes but many
times, it was refreshing because it felt good that at least someone cared for me. I wondered why my mum hadn‟t visited. If my dad didn‟t visit, it would be great in saving me mental and physical stress but I needed my mum more than I could express. Even though she
behaved too soft many times, making other people ride her easily, I still loved her so much. And despite my dad‟s awkward behaviors, I
still loved him nonetheless, but would be happy to avoid him for some time. Our poverty state seemed to have changed his mentality.
I sighed and rolled off the bed to answer nature‟s call. I had been urinating a lot and Tina attributed it to the pregnancy. After releasing the content in my bladder into the water closet and flushing, I walked back into the room. I heard a knock and instinctively knew it was Tina. I had grown so accustomed to her
knocking pattern.
“Come in Tina” I said as I sat on the bed carefully. The
dizziness had gone, thank God and my appetite was improving, thanks to Tina‟s unrelenting efforts.
Tina entered with a big smile on her face which effectively made me smile also. I was just so blessed to have her at a time like this. “Good morning. How is my madam doing today?”
I smiled. “My name is Amara. How many times would I repeat
that?” I asked softly. The tray in her hands caught my eyes and my
mouth watered when the tantalizing aroma assaulted my nostrils.
Whatever was in that tray would definitely be devoured by me
because I heard my tummy groan in response to the aroma. My child
seemed to jump up in excitement.
She grinned. “You may be my friend but you are still my boss.
You can perceive the aroma, right?” she asked knowingly. She was
the best cook I had ever seen. I vowed to learn how to make some of
the complicated delicacies from her, as soon as I am able to get myself
off this mess.
“This aroma is more than enough to awaken my taste buds.” I
murmured, with my mouth salivating as she lowered the tray.
“Thank God, I won‟t have to force it down your throat” she
said with a smile. Immediately she opened up the glass plate, I
confirmed my suspicion. There was a large piece of deep fried
chicken, which was largely responsible for the aroma. A small
quantity of jollof rice was beside it, and I noticed the fried plantain
with great joy.
I smiled wholeheartedly. “I see you are bent on making me
happy today” I said.
She nodded. “I can‟t have you starve the little angel in your
tummy, can I?”
I dismissed her words and started eating immediately. Tina sat
by the bed, watching me eat, with a calm smile on her face. “If this is
what it takes to make you eat, I might cook this everyday”
I nodded vigorously with my mouth full. I truly would not
mind this delicacy, if it tastes like this all the time.
She looked at me softly. “I was actually planning to ask you
something” she said and I nodded my head for her to continue. “Are
you not going for antenatal care?” she asked.
I raised my brow. “Antenatal?” I asked ignorantly.
Her eyes widened as though she could not quite believe her
ears, but she soon wiped out the facial expression. “Yes, antenatal
care is used by hospitals to monitor and guide pregnant women
through the stages of pregnancy” she said.
I almost stopped eating. “I have never heard of it. I was only
used to midwives back in the village. Hope it is not too late” fear
gripped my heart at the thought that something might have
happened to my child.
“Of course not. I can follow you to a hospital this evening if
you like” she offered.
“Of course. Thanks Tina” I said gratefully and she smiled.
I pulled my faded gown over my head as stared at the full
length mirror. The gentle swell of my tummy brought joy to my soul.
Notwithstanding what I was going though, my child was my
happiness and I have made the habit of talking to my child before I
sleep, believing that the fetus could hear everything I said. This
would be the first time I am stepping out of the house and there was
a tiny feeling of excitement. My hair was pulled tight into a pony tail
and I turned away from the mirror, not looking at myself for a long
time. I stared at the credit card that Alex gave me two weeks ago.
How could there be money in this plastic card? I wondered vaguely. I
picked it up nonetheless. I hoped that Tina would be able to use it
since we might be needing money.
I climbed down the staircase and found Tina waiting for me.
Even in a maid‟s cloth, her appearance was way better than mine but
I did not give a damn. I would be damned if I would accept Alex‟s
money for my own personal expenses. I would only take whatever is
necessary if my child is involved.
We walked to the door together talking quietly and out of the
corner of my eyes; I caught Tola staring at us. I paused slightly and
turned to Tola. “Please take care of the house, we would be back
soon”
“Yes ma” she said bitterly.
I turned and proceeded out of the house with Tina. “Do you
think you can walk? The hospital is not far but if you can‟t handle the
walk, we can ask a driver to take us”
I laughed. “Oh Tina, the pregnancy is not on my feet. If I can‟t
walk now, what would happen when I am nine months gone? I am
sure I would not be able to lift a finger.”
She laughed and we both started down the beautiful street. I
stared shamelessly at the beautiful surroundings and decided that
taking a stroll every morning would be a fantastic idea. It would be
good to leave the depressing house every morning, I told myself. It
did not take long for us to get to the hospital. I went through the
registration process and was made to take lectures with many pregnant women. It was refreshing to see women who were also
pregnant, especially the heavy ones who looked like they were
carrying nothing less than a dozen children in their tummy. I
wondered what I would look like in the next six to seven months. I
smiled at the thought. I might look three times my current size but I
did not care. I was always a lover of children and the thought of
having my own was too exciting a thought; I would not let thoughts
of the child‟s father kill that silent joy.
Before leaving the hospital hours later, a female doctor
approached me. “Hi” she said with a soft smile.
I was in a really good mood for the first time in a very long
time, so I smiled gaily at her. “Hello doctor”
“I don‟t think I have seen you here before” the nurse said.
Tina smiled. “Actually, she is new in the environment” she said
hastily.
The doctor smiled kindly. “Oh. Have you done your scan?” she
asked and my heart froze. I definitely knew what a scan was, through
extensive reading. But what I did not know was if I was ready to
know the sex of my child.
“I… I don‟t think…erm...” I stammered in anxiety.
Tina faced me. “Actually, that is a very good idea ma‟am” her
brows creased in a frown. “Why not? It would help you know the
kind of clothes to buy. You might even be carrying twins” she
squealed in sudden excitement.
I fidgeted with my gown in anxiety. She really had a point, and
a part of me really wanted to know. In fact, all of me wanted to
know. My only wish was that the man I loved was there with me
holding my hands. I swallowed, quickly changing my line of
thoughts. I smiled weakly at the doctor. “Can I do it now?”
She nodded excitedly. “I am sure you would be glad you did
the scan.” She said. “Come with me”
I followed her and the presence of Tina was really a life saver. I
did not know why I was so agitated. Probably because a part of me
knew without a doubt that the child would be a boy. I swallowed. It
was also probably because the scan would remind me vividly of the
time the life in my tummy was created. How Alex worshipped me
with his hands, body and words. I concentrated on breathing
properly as the doctor led me to bed in the lab. I lay on the bed with
my heart pounding and fixed my wide eyes on the screen ahead of
me. Tina was standing beside me, hopping anxiously too. The doctor
did some things on my tummy and an image appeared on the screen.
My heart skipped and raced wildly as tears came to my eyes. I saw
my baby! My baby! My thoughts centered on the life growing in me
as my love for my child grew several degrees.
“Oh so cute” Tina cooed and jumped like a four year old girl. I wiped my tears which was making my vision blurry and fixed one hundred percent attention on the child. Oh, how could I not love the child?
“A boy right?” I gasped out. Even my voice sounded strange in my ears. I swallowed hard.
“Yes. A boy” the doctor grinned happily. The baby turned slightly, as though in confirmation. I gasped and my hands flew to my tummy as my eyes blurred with tears again.
“My baby. My baby boy”
T.b.c
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